Losers Continue to Lose [NSFW]

Mia scooted off of Masaru's lap and promptly dunked herself under the water, intending to stay under because her face was not cooling one bit. The water didn't help, didn't help at all!

All she could think were things that she shouldn't and couldn't think about and couldn't enjoy because Masaru at her mercy in that was way too nice and it was wrong!

Wroooong! Mia made a sound, bubbles escaping her as she attempted to drown her sorrows.

After a moment...or two, Masaru finally gained some grasp on his senses and managed to tear his eyes away from the wall, looking over to Mia to...not see Mia?

H-Huh?

His eyes trailed down then, finally noticing her as the bubbles came up to see she'd submerged herself in the water.

"M-Mia-!?

His hands went out to her, trying to get her to resurface, even if she hadn't been under there long he still...still thought it best for her to resurface!

Mia couldn't resist Masaru right now, so while he attempted to lift her from the water it was successful. She just made a soft, squeaking little flustered sound as her face burned brightly.

Oh no... It was stuck in here. She was going to die, she should die. This was such an awful image in her head but just... Masa...like that...

More squeaks sounded, no no no not like that... "Aaaaah..."

Aaaah?

"M-Mia...?" She was flustered, really flustered... T-Though flustered wasn't exactly what one would equate to the imagery forced into his mind, so...so she couldn't be thinking that... W-Was she thinking of...the fact that they had...?

H-He wasn't sure what else to think or assume!

I-It was best to simply...a-ask outright rather than...a-assume no matter...how...

Mia dripped water as stared down, face burning while contemplating how easy it would be to just fall back into the water and hopefully find some magical way to get these images out of her head.

"I'm an awful person..." Masaru had such a horrible past! How could...the image of him... with his arms above him against the headboard...half dressed... be so tempting. So... tempting...

She squeaked, this was so bad! A pitiful whisper, a very pitiful whisper, escaped her. "So awful..."

A-Awful...?

"H-How? M-Mia you're not... You're not awful! T-The...image of past members of my family...taking part in such actions...was not a good image, but...but that doesn't make you awful! Not in the slightest!"

It was clear Masaru had no idea what was on Mia's mind, she was flustered and squeaking, but...

W-Why did she think this suddenly!?

"...I-Is that...really bothering you that much?" Mia's voice squeaked at the end, almost in disbelief. This... was kind of unbelievable to her... "M-My dad is...still... definitely... and he's probably doing so right now. Masa, I have to live...with knowing this...day in and day out. I have to knock, and wait...and wait to see my father just in case."

"Ancestors you never met... should not bother you this much..." She lived in constant awareness of the fact that her father was someone who did those things near daily, that her mother picked up and tossed aside lovers like candy. "I-I am not bothered by that! I-I was just...having...b-bad thoughts..."

Masaru blinked, somewhat surprised by Mia's reaction towards his words.

T-True... Her father was...still... T-That wasn't something he really wanted to think about either, but...but he knew it had to be a lot worse on her...

S-Still... Some he'd never met, but...but he'd met his parents at least! His grandfather he'd only known briefly...too young to really...remember much about him after growing up...but...

"S-Sorry...I...It's...Aah..." He...He had no way to...really respond on his side of things... as for.. "B-Bad thoughts...?"

Maybe she had been a bit too vehement in her response and Mia blushed, ashamed as she looked away. "A-Ah...sorry... I'm sorry Masa... I didn't mean it."

What was with her temper lately!? She was losing it all over the place, with Masaru and elsewhere... Curling up a bit in the bath, Mia wrapped her arms around her legs and scooted a bit away from Masaru. At least as much as she could...

Not meeting his eyes, she nodded against her knees. "J-Just...s-stuff like that... I-I...just...my mind went to a silly thing with the sash and its not important..."

"I-It's alright, it's... I know it has to be harder on you...t-that...stuff...knowing..." He wasn't going to say it exactly, knowing it might just... Well like him Mia obviously didn't want to envision her own father doing something with Lakshmi or her mother with someone...

His attention was on Mia, blinking as she...scooted away from him?

"M-Mia..." His hand reached out, a couple of fingers moving to the side of her head to lightly touch in hopes of calming her. "Not important?"

Stuff like...that...her mind had gone to something with his sash...?

"...?" He was quiet, but found it best not to push too much.

"Mm-mm... I mean...your dad did lots of things with your mom in the closets sometimes... Even before they were married..." Mia murmured, giving a sagely nod against her knees. Masaru had his own crosses to bear in this case, she could not... could not be selfish and steal all of that horror and grossed out state. He was allowed to have his own...

As Masaru questioned her though, Mia leaned into his hand despite her own hesitance in responding otherwise. It...wasn't fair of him to touch her head! Not fair...

"...Its...not good...because of the bad stuff in your life... I just... had an image pop up...o-of tying your hands above your head...with your sash...a-and using my mouth on you...lots..." Mia was burning up, but really when Masaru asked she caved. He'd always, always, get to know what was on her awful tainted mind. Even if they both regretted it...

T-Tying... Masaru felt his face burn up...quite a bit at that, Mia's words causing...obviously causing such an image to appear in his mind. W-With her...m-mouth... S-Sash...tied...him... T-That was...s-something she...she wanted to do...?

"T-That...'s...s-s-s-something...y-you wan...want...t-to do...?" He was treading lightly here, his voice showing no signs of...insult or disgust towards her fantasy it was...just...asking...in an obviously very flustered state.

Sh...She...Wanted...

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"....-Eh?" Wait...before...what had she said before...that...about... "E...E-Eh...?" Masaru blinked, his face frozen in blissful confusion as the information Mia had given him about his parents finally started to register. ".....Eh..?"

....What?

....H-Huh...?

What...What was she talking about? His parents...closet...? Before...

Eh?

Eh....?

Masaru seemed frozen for minutes that almost felt like hours before he started to show signs of his halted horror. His face still frozen, as well as his body only seemed to shake slightly before his eyes looked to the side...and then down...

His expression was obviously horrified as he fell back.

His parents... Closet!? What....What about....about all those rules about... His father and mother...before...before marriage...despite...despite... What... It was all...all a ruse!? The rule was real, but...but... The image! The image he'd kept...of them...for so long... They'd always...followed the rules...always...always....always....always....

"...A-Ah... I don't... know... I-I...just...the image...seems...e-enticing..." Mia wasn't sure what...what she wanted, it was just an image that popped up in her head that was tempting and enticing to think about. Would it be really enticing even...outside of fantasy though?

She...didn't know... couldn't know... And Masaru's carefully neutral voice and words scared her. He was trying not to show... anything or tread lightly...

So...must be something weird...

Still, it was odd how he had just commented on that but not anything else and Mia lifted her head just as Masaru made such a confused mess of sounds. His confusion could only last so long, unfortunately and as it faded with newfound horror, Mia's confusion grew. In fact it grew to bursting before Masaru fell backwards and she dove for him.

"M-Masa no! Don't drown!" Mia wrapped her arms around his body and pulled him to her, splashing water all over as she attempted to keep his head afloat in the water. "Aaah I thought you knew! One of the older servants and I had a talk... She was trying to make me feel better about things and not worry so much over what we are doing..."

He wanted to focus on the other talk, the safer talk! The safer talk that was the flustering fantasy Mia had, but he couldn't focus on it in the slightest! The... His parents...had...

He gave no reaction as his horror continued when Mia pulled him up to where his head would be above water at least.

She'd thought he known!?

"N-N-No! No I did not!" He managed to get out, though his tone was quick, panicked, and horrified as this reality hit him.

He had not known! He had not known at all!

He...He had believed them to be respectful of the rules! The rules he'd been raised to stick too and had broken! Them though... He had not imagined once they'd...

It was like his world was crashing down around him at this revelation...

Mia was panicking herself, Masaru a limp mess of ruin right now and making her worried over him falling in and drowning. She held him to her tightly, keeping her arms wrapped around his chest and under his arms as her lower body settled over his legs.

She was secure now! "I'm sorry, I'm sorry... Someone told me I think to make me feel better. Y-You... I thought someone might have... to help you too..."

Was it really so bad knowing this? Though considering how serious Masaru had kept his vows... knowing his own father hadn't kept them...so serious... "I-It seems like most...just um... follow it as a guideline and only... have sex with their intended? S-So its not so bad..."

Masaru's whole world was crashing down on him and Mia would just have to hold him tightly and give him her love.

"N...No one...told...no one..."

No one had told him, absolutely no one had told him before now, his world was crashing down upon him. F...Follow them as guidelines!? He...He was taught one had to follow absolutely!

A Shirakawa was taught from childhood to obey the rules set in place! That breaking them would shame the clan! That... They were meant to be followed absolutely, not as guidelines!

He had...had worried himself over these rules for how long and they had by previous heads been followed as guidelines!?

"Poor sweetheart... I'm sorry you had to find out like this..." Mia held Masaru to her gently, reaching up to pet his wet hair and setting her head on his. Soothing, she had to soothe him. This was such a giant shock that had broken him, she couldn't help but want to take care of him and help him through this most trying time and horror.

Her own admission, her position on Masaru and really how naked and wet they were did not bother her right now. She was given a gift of soothing and taking care of Masaru, so her focus was on there. "This just means you were the most studious and most loyal of all the Shirakawa heads for a long time. You are the epitome of what it means to be a Shirakawa."

Mia was so proud of him then, he was truly what his family stood for and she adored that about him. Though she wished he could loosen up more at times.

T-Think of it...like...how Mia was putting it...

Think of it like that...

That... He had...followed absolutely up until a certain point, and...he'd reacted...strongly when realization hit that he'd broken some of the rules, he'd spent...his life living by these rules...as he was meant to...

He... e-epitome....of what it meant to be...a Shirakawa...epitome...

Still... Still everything...he'd been told up until now...everything...

E-Epitome...of...what it meant to be a Shirakwa...him...he...aaa... He just...needed to think of it like that... Like that...even if... No, epitome...of...

Guideline...s...

"Y-You only broke the rules once you found...your...intended... and so... so...its fine... P-Plus... I am a powerful shinigami. S-So even if I am... not a noble... And my father is...marrying into a family too..." Mia was rambling now, unsure of whether her words but hoping it all helped Masaru through his crisis.

The rules being broken weren't entirely broken, just bent a bit. It was totally fine! And he was doing way better than others in his family! He was the greatest head in a long time!

He followed his rules most closely, he did his best... He was impossibly powerful... He worked hard... He was a great head Shirakawa and led them with honor and honesty! Kissing the top of his head, Mia nuzzled his hair softly after. "Don't worry...you do your best and its amazing Masa. You are the best head they've had in a long time, you aren't messing up and you aren't an awful one at all."

He had...only broken them upon...finding his intended... He...and Mia definitely planned on marriage in the future... He...He had followed the rules almost perfectly up until recently... He worked hard to...maintain the Shirakawa image...

Mia's nuzzling helped Masaru get his thoughts more...legible in his mind, rather than the scattered mess they had been. He was...trying...he tried hard...he worked hard to keep the Shirakawa Clan's honor...

He and Mia...intended on marriage...and were being careful...

"W-We're...being...careful...we intend...to marry, and...I'm...t-trying...working hard..." Masaru's voice was coming out in a mutter, but with Mia's proximity she could likely hear him.

"You are. You are succeeding too, you are the most honorable person I know." They were being careful, they were keeping a lot of their actions and feelings hidden despite what Masaru had done so boldly in moving her into his home and rooms. No children yet, but lots of love at least... And Masaru was still keeping up with his work, while resting a ton too! No overworked sicknesses allowed any longer.

"I'm sure they are all proud of you, your parents and your ancestors. You uphold it all to the best of your ability, and you do a good job of it." Mia continued in her soothing tone, the nuzzles and head rubs still attempting to calm Masaru down into coherency again. "I bet Ikari thinks the same! And even if Ikari doesn't, which would mean a nice meeting with my father for several hours, you have me thinking so."

He was...

He was working hard...and succeeding... He was succeeding, he was...doing a good job with his duties, and keeping himself healthy...not overworking too much...but still able to keep up with his work. He was...doing fine...he was doing fine...

"I-I'm...doing...fine..."

Parents...grandparents...ancestors...proud of him, Mia was sure they were all proud of him in actuality... He was upholding the clan's honor to the best of his ability...

Sh...She believed Ikari thought the same?

Ikari gave no reply, but it was likely he'd shut himself out...unless the threat of her father truly got to him... He had no idea.

It was a few more moments...minutes...but gradually Masaru was calming, his thoughts coming together clearly. He...He was doing alright... He was a good head... He was doing his job well...

"More than fine." Mia chuckled and nuzzled Masaru's hair a few more times before she began planting soft kisses on the top of his head. He needed more reassurances, but it was definitely calming him down now. Masaru would get over this crisis and they could leave the lukewarm bath, which would be nice.

All of those people, if they were good people who were honest and not assholes, would definitely think the same of Masaru. She couldn't speak personally for them, not having met any of them ever... Other than Ikari at least, but she was definitely going to and they could not object~

"I'm proud too, even if you worry me tons with how much you try to do. Its really admirable how much you work and try to work and I've always, always thought so." They'd definitely been in the bath far too long though and Mia leaned up on her knees that were straddling Masaru's lap. Her hold on him loosened of course, though a bit hesitantly in case he fell again. "Wanna get out of the bath now? It's a bit cold now and can't be good for you to get all wrinkly."

M-More than fine...

Right...

Masaru had relaxed a lot in comparison to how he'd been only moments before thanks to Mia, he wasn't as tense and horrified anymore, her words having helped more than a little.

He was...doing fine, more than fine...

M-Mia was...proud too... He worried her with how much he worked himself, but...she was still proud, he was...also trying not to worry her as much though that was something he was still...working on...when it came to not overworking... He was doing better with that...much better.

The bath...right, it wasn't...it wasn't hot anymore, just lukewarm, and so Masaru gave a small nod; "Sounds good... We can get out now; thank you, Mia..."

She had definitely helped...

Mia nodded and let go of Masaru fully, getting off of him and shedding water all over as she gave him a small smile. "Hehe, welcome Masa. I guess I should remind you of that stuff more often?"

Really, she should shower him in that reassurance since well he had broken utterly over the revelation of his family's not entire adherence to its rules. It was a good rule, in some ways, but really hindered its members and caused them to break it. She was sure there were unhonorable Shirakawas in the line somewhere, but Masaru was definitely not one of them.

It would be good for him to feel less guilty over it... Or well worry so much, since she doubted he felt more than passing guilt at this point. Stepping out of the bath, Mia grabbed a few towels for herself before holding one out for Masaru. Her hair took a bit of drying really so it wasn't like she could deal with just one.