Colorful World [nsfw]

Miyako was...quite sad otter. Her usual chipper cheer was gone as Hibiki radiated anger and rage. She didn't cower, not really, it was more... wilted than anything. Her blooming smile stuttered and faded as she took the soup from the microwave...

He was really that pissed at Muika... She shouldn't have told him. He'd just...lash out at her friend now.

Setting the soup on the tray, Miyako sighed softly but stayed utterly quiet after her mess up earlier. She'd just make it worse... Grabbing the filled tray with obvious effort, she attempted to lift it and head for the stairs. Time for bed...

Hibiki continued to take the occasional sip from the water, Miyako having quieted before he heard the moving of dishes. Glancing over, he noticed the soup was done and he moved to stand, watching as she picked up the tray with obvious effort.

Shaking his head he went over to her, "Here... Let me carry it, it'll be easier..."

He didn't make a grab for it, knowing that was a dumb move considering she had hot soup on the tray, but held his hands out at least to take it. The tray had a lot on it, it was heavy, she didn't need to exhaust herself further...

She seemed upset...but...

"...Sorry, I can't exactly...forgive Okura's actions right now, or my own..." The last part was pretty quiet, a mutter as he waited for her to hand over the tray. He couldn't forgive Okura, couldn't forgive himself...not right now...

Especially not right now...

"All right... Thank you..." Miyako looked a bit relieved as Hibiki came over despite his head shake, a small smile appearing briefly as she handed the tray over to him. It had been heavy... But he was quite a bit stronger than her, even if she wasn't a slouch really.

This didn't seem like his usual hate of the woman and his quiet words at the end were barely caught as his apology was startling. She stared for a few moments before shaking her head, leading him to the stairs before beginning to ascend.

"Whats...that? What...about yourself? Because you are angry at her and I don't...want you to be?" She was confused, grasping at straws and wondering what was wrong with Hibiki that he couldn't forgive himself. She'd barely caught it, if she hadn't been so quiet and focused on him she'd have missed it...

"Mn..." Hibiki turned, moving to the stairs with Miyako and heading up them, making sure nothing spilled, though the fact that Miyako had caught his earlier words had caused him to tense. "...That's...nothing, not right now..."

She was too tired to get into this...

"We'll talk after you've eaten, and rested a bit..." He didn't want to budge from that...so he wasn't giving anything that straight up answered her; he just wanted her to get some rest right now...

Once upstairs, he waited for her to crawl into bed, and if she did as expected he'd set the tray down for her so she could eat.

Miyako was confused, but shook her head and finished heading up the stairs... If he said it was nothing right now... She couldn't push him right now, Hibiki was obviously hiding something else but she couldn't pry it from him. "All right, after I eat and rest you'll tell me though."

It wasn't a question, just a sighed statement. She'd just have to practice patience, which wasn't hard when she was starving... Making it to the bed was easy, she crawled up onto it and settled herself in among the many pillows. Hibiki set the tray nicely over her, once he had though she began to dig in, starting with the soup. Leek soup was good for being sick or feeling down, she was glad she'd tried to make it since it was soothing now.

"Once I'm rested...you promise? To tell me." Miyako murmured softly, pausing her complete black holing of the soup just enough to ask that.

"Mn, alright..." Hibiki answered, standing by as Miyako waited on his answer before she began eating. He'd talk once she rested, it's what he'd wanted to do anyway, and he was just relieved she wasn't putting up an argument to get him to talk now...

Though, like she'd said earlier, she was too tired to fight...

"Promise..." He added, since she seemed to want that reassurance. "Wanted to anyway, but only after you've rested."

Miyako smiled sweetly, even if it was weak, as Hibiki not only reaffirmed he would but also promised... And then gave her more reassurances that he wanted to after she'd rested. Nodding softly, she dug into her food after that. With faster than even normal speeds, she practically absorbed the food.

Fruit, salad, soup... The veggies... All of it was devoured and within a short time the tray was empty but for the remaining dishes that she luckily hadn't eaten. Leaning back into the pillows, Miyako smiled and snuggled in. "Aaah, my bed... So comfy. Do I have to nap though before I get to hear whats wrong? Or is this enough resting...?"

Would Hibiki count what she'd done as resting or was she supposed to sleep more or something... There was no fight in her right now, she was letting him do as he pleased...

Once Miyako was done, Hibiki moved to get the tray, though he didn't depart to head back down to the kitchen immediately, instead waiting for her to finish speaking before shaking his head.

"Sleep a bit, s'no fair if we talk when you can't even rebuttal..." He knew she likely would when they actually got into it...and there would be things she'd likely want to say, talking it out when she was like this was a one sided thing and it wouldn't be fair to her... "I'll come back up and crawl in when I clean up the kitchen...be right back."

Saying that, he headed down; luckily there wasn't really all that much to pick up...and all the stuff Miyako bought could be put away by the both of them once she was rested.

It wasn't enough resting... Miyako yawned and nodded, just...accepting Hibiki's words as truth while he took the tray away. "Mmkay..."

She would need to speak up and say things? Yeah, thats no good right now. She'd just... let him talk and maybe fall asleep. That wouldn't be right to do to him, not at all... He was gonna clean up the kitchen for her? How sweet...

Snuggling into the pillows, she turned on her side a bit and gave him a soft, murmured, "Love you.." as he headed down the stairs. He'd crawl in with her when he was done?

She could sleep now then... And by the time Hibiki came back up she'd be out like a light, face relaxed and content in sleep with a large kitten in her arms, stretched out and also sleeping.

It didn't take long to get things straightened up, and once the dishes that needed cleaning were cleaned he moved to put the tray away where it'd sit until the next time they needed it. The bags were still at the door for the most part, so he went to bring them a bit more into the apartment, settling them near the couch for now before heading back up the stairs.

Miyako seemed like she was completely out, and even Regalia was all snuggled up to her.

Instead of dressing down as he typically did, he just moved into bed, moving in as much as he could so as not to disturb Miyako as he made himself comfortable.

Rest for now, and they could talk later...

Miyako shifted as Hibiki entered the bed, but it wasn't as if she was waking up. She merely woke up a tiny bit and moved slightly to be closer to him as he settled in himself. Regalia didn't seem to mind either, stretching as she was pulled along and letting out a soft kitty yawn before falling back asleep.

Being close to Hibiki in sleep felt nice and she murmured his name softly before drifting off again.

It was nice like this...

Still the fact that she was fully dressed caused her to rouse within a few hours, the fact that she'd fallen asleep way early adding to it. Miyako rubbed her eyes and stretched lightly, making soft little groans as she woke up quite against her own will...

Hibiki had fallen into his own light slumber for the few hours Miyako rested, and as she began to wake and move he was roused from his own sleep, a light sound escaping him before he opened his eyes.

Miyao was definitely waking up, she was stretching, but they had to talk...not right now, it was best to wake up just a bit first, but...

This was a talk he was dreading, mostly because it'd obviously bring out some negative things, but... it needed to be done... He'd fucked up, and Miyako was hurting because of it...

Miyako sat up slowly, grumbling as her hands went behind her body to undo her bra. Blegggh... Was Hibiki waking up too? She blinked the sleep from her eyes and turned enough to patpat his side. "Mm, go back to sleep 'Biki..."

He obviously had been resting to, he needed it just as much as her if something was bugging him. Once she had successfully patpatted, Miyako slipped her bra off and tossed it to the side before continuing to strip off all of her clothes.

Pajamas would be way better... Moving slowly and stripping, the kitten was gone for now but Miyako could hear a toy being played with downstairs, she attempted to get off of the bed to go get pajamas on...

"Mn...n... I'm fine..." Hibiki answered, a bit sleepily, but only because he was walking up. He was waking up, he'd be fine... They could talk once Miyako was more awake, though it seemed for now she was dressing down a bit for comfort.

s'Was fine... He was overall fine in terms of comfort, but eventually moved to slip his shirt off, knowing that would feel better.

He could get into pajama pants later next time he got up, for now he just moved to sit up in bed while Miyako changed.

Miyako just yawned and stretched as Hibiki stated he was fine in that sleepy way. If he felt he was... Wasn't like she could convince him short of pinning him to the bed and cuddling him till the sleep demon overtook him.

That could happen after she got pajamas on. Her clothes were tossed towards the clothes basket, but they could be put in properly later... Reaching the dresser, Miyako pulled out her normal sleepwear. It was a combination of snow leopard print tank top and long, soft pants in neon rainbow...

She couldn't bring herself to put on the chemises too often... Turning around, she noticed Hibiki sitting up and shirtless, but still in his pants. Miyako headed back to the bed, waking up more than she'd wanted before crawling back up on it. Her eyes were worried as she reached for him, wondering what was eating him up so bad... "Lay back down, you look so tired..."

"I'm fine, really." Hibiki answered, looking to Miyako after she'd changed and crawled back up onto the bed. If she wanted to touch him, having noticed her reaching for him, she could no problem.

He really would be fine though, once it was actually time for sleep he'd sleep; for now he could stay up like he planned on doing. He wasn't exhausted, sleep just came easy to him...

Talking was something he'd rather do, but...he wasn't sure how to start, hell...he wasn't sure if Miyako was awake enough... She was definitely waking up, but...

Miyako just continued reaching out for Hibii, leaning up on her knees to then fall against him as her arms wrapped around his neck. She was attempting to push him back into the soft bedding, trying to get him to lay back down and snuggle him.

Whatever it was he had to say, she felt... she had a feeling it wasn't something she'd want to hear. Just...push him back into the bedding and he'd go straight back to sleep. Especially with her warmth to add to the temptation!

Just...sleep... Sleep times...

H-Hah!?

He'd expected Miyako to move closer to him, but he was caught a bit by surprise as she attempted to push him down. His moment of surprise had worked to her advantage and he'd fallen back into the bedding, but that didn't mean he planned on sleeping.

She was...really wanting him to sleep, but...

"...I'm sorry..." Well, what a way to start off...

Success! The young woman had won, had successfully pushed Hibiki over onto the bedding and soft fluffy pillows. He would sleep for sure then!

However as Miyako attempted to snuggle him into the bedding, he spoke up and she froze. Instead of cuddling him, she pushed herself up slowly before staring with a minor frown. What...? He was...sorry?

It wasn't like him to just...apologize... "Sorry for...what, Hibiki? Um, I don't understand...?"

Really, this was out of nowhere... Was this the something... the something that was bothering him? But...what?

"..." Miyako was confused, obviously... He'd just apologized out of nowhere which wasn't like him, she had no context for it... It was pretty much up to him to explain himself, even if he struggled to do so. "When I freaked out about...the animal...attachments... I never meant...for you to think I thought it was...was monstrous...

It's not. What I said before...about your powers being...more miraculous than weird...I meant that... I was just stunned, and...maybe...e...embarrassed... Not...not used to something that just...gives my emotions away...so..."

Hibiki shook his head then, "Point...Point is, if...monstrous is what you got out of my reaction then...that's wrong, and I fucked up...

I...fucked up before Okura even did... Making those...stupid mistakes...so... I'm sorry..."

He was speaking a lot, but he needed to get this all out or he was just going to have trouble trying later in little bits and pieces...

Miyako waited for a moment, did she really want to hear... No. As he began speaking, she began sliding off of him. That had been something she'd told Muika today.

In secret confidence... Of all people she'd trusted that Muika would never even talk to Hibiki about this. Never bring it up, never start some sort of conversation... Slipping off of him fully, she scooted to the far side of the bed from him and sat there...

"...She...told you. She...Muika told you! She wasn't supposed to!" Her voice was weak, staring down at her legs on the bed as she clenched her hands in the bedding. "That wasn't supposed to... you weren't supposed... to know..."

"You were horrified. Your face... was horrified. I did something really bad, I... keep doing really bad things." The clouds today even... Miyako felt herself tearing up and cursed how easy it was to make herself cry. "Don't...say sorry for something you couldn't control. I make things that shouldn't exist. O-Of course its scary. Its...you didn't fuck up at all... I did."

Hibiki's admittance of his embarrassment and the animal parts that could read his emotions were heard, but it...couldn't penetrate far right now. Neither could the miraculous comment... Just... she couldn't think that about herself.

"I needed to know... I wasn't horrified, Miyako; I was taken by surprise, yes, but you didn't do anything wrong." Hibiki was beginning to find strength in his voice, but...he knew this wasn't going to be an easy conversation to have as Miyako slipped off of him.

This needed to be set straight.

"I'm honestly glad Okura talked, it'll do way more harm than good to just bottle this up... I know...I know it may seem a lot better to just ignore it, and imagine it'll get better, but that's not how it works.

Those powers of yours aren't weird Miyako, they're normal for people like...like us! You're not any weirder than I am, than... It's not wrong, you create things...

Powers...say things...about the people they belong to... I think...at least that seems to be how it works..."

From all that he'd read up on after gaining his abilities, from before sort of too...

"You're powers are just like if you're painting... What's on...what's on the damn paper before you start? Nothing... You create the image... It's just doing it on a more...three dimensional plane...

You help people... You got rid of our physical scars, you got rid of any physical damage that even gave away anything about Okura and my life before all of this...

They're not weird... You didn't fuck up... I wasn't horrified...that wasn't it at all..." Hibiki was shaking his head, trying to get through to her, struggling to do so...

"It was...mine to tell! Not hers!" Miyako shook her head, her voice catching at the end, knowing she would have never...never told Hibiki. Never let him know this... not if she could help it. She knew that... He knew that, she was just lashing out at having her feelings brought out into the open without... without... wanting them...

She gripped the bedding tightly, arms and hands clenched tightly as she shook and more tears poured silently from her eyes. Miyako refused to look up, just staring at her legs as the world blurred. "It...your face was so...horrified... though... no matter what you say I can't...forget that... I can't not see it... It was..."

"My powers say something about me?! I..." She did create pictures, she created a lot of them... Pictures, drawings paintings... All of it was something she did... But it was one thing... "Its one thing to take things that already exist and put them together, thats all I do. Its another to make things from nothing! That's what I do!"

Frustrated at how he couldn't understand, she summoned her powers and eyes glowed before there was a bright flash and then... In her outrstretched hand floated something impossible above her fingers.

"...Do you know what this is?!" Miyako practically shrieked, her body shaking from way more than her upset state. She'd used up almost all her brushes right now and was worn the hell out but she held up the floating orb that seemed to be made of molten things and was a shimmering blue. Arcs of its plasma flew off it but... It seemed to only radiate a bit of heat for now.

"Its a goddamn star! I made a star. A living, moving star like our sun! If I wanted it would brighten and shine, if I wanted it would heat up! Look at this, its so fucking impossible to exist and yet here it is floating in my hand. I could put it on a chain and wear it as a necklace and..." It...wasn't as powerful as the sun by far or anything, she could feel that... it was still a ball of plasma though, a star... That... talk about her healing though did seem to pierce her freaking before she looked away, letting her arm fall as the miniature star continued to float there... "Even if I could... could get rid of things... That's just a small bit... Its not the awful...part..."

She was so sure he'd been horrified, but...there was so much more to it than that! She wasn't getting it... He wasn't horrified...he wasn't...

He wasn't going to shut up, or stop until he could at least get mostly through to her, he wasn't sure if he could completely, but...damn it, he'd try!

"M-Miyako-!" Before he could say more, Miyako had summoned her powers, which wasn't good... She'd just end up exhausting herself again!

It was too late though, and she'd created... He didn't know at first until Miyako said. A star...

Quiet, he was quiet as he let her finish...the part about their scars seeminging getting something to her, but...

"...Yeah, it's a star...and it's...incredible, not weird...incredible... Yeah, it's something impossible, but why...why's that a bad thing?" It'd taken him a moment, but he'd gradually calmed himself enough to speak his mind.

A sigh escaped him, and he shook his head; "You have potential...to create things that may hurt, but do you? It's all about how you use your powers...

Isn't that..how a lot of those damn super hero stories go? I wouldn't know, but...honestly anyone with powers...it's all in account of how they're used...

You're using yours to help people, help us... You removed the damn brand marks off of those two guys and you hardly even knew them! Your powers aren't awful...

You can...create lots of incredible things... The star's one of 'em... Those animal parts... Hell, people would probably go crazy over them! There's probably plenty of things out there available for people that are like what you make, but...lesser.

I was...I was embarrassed, Miyako...not horrified, I'm not one to just...be open, you know that. You know that more than anyone! I wasn't horrified, and if I have to say it until I'm blue in the damn face I will!

T-Think of how it acted when the stuff was on me, what the hell did that damn tail do any time I looked at you!? Being that...that open just isn't something I'm used to, not yet...so I was shocked, and tried to prevent myself from being read...

Not horrified..."

The star began orbiting her head, pulled there by gravity of some sort as Miyako just shut up and listened to Hibiki. He...it was impossible but that's not bad? Miyako shook her head softly, purple hair shifted and smacking her lightly in the face as the star orbited her...

Her hands clenched the bedding as he sighed and shook his head... No, she didn't hurt... She couldn't, she didn't want to. There... were times when she wished she could but just... it wasn't in her...

...H-He was even talking about super heroes and stuff now?! Miyako winced and felt more tears leaking out as she stared down at the bedding again... It was how you used your powers that mattered, right...? She'd helped two people she barely knew...

B-But they'd helped her! She couldn't have left them stuck with that stuff... Not speaking just yet, she jolted again as Hibiki spoke about people going crazy over the animal ears... That, that got a tiny little giggle, a sniffling one but... a giggle.

She went crazy over them so...

His admittance though, pure over and obvious admittance was what... really cracked her denial. The rest helped, obviously wearing her down but as he admitted beyond a doubt that he'd just been horrified over being read so easily... Well embarrassed so badly at that... He'd just wanted to not be read...

Miyako sniffled much more strongly, reaching up to wipe her eyes with one hand without looking up. "Really? I-I am not... a weird... impossible...aberration? Y-You were just... scared of showing... things?"

"D-Does that mean... you'll put it back on sometimes...?" She added, a tiny bit of hope shining in her voice...